||[Jun. 10th, 2006|10:13 pm]
Start me fresh, its summer. I think I've bottled myself up in the past - restricted myself to where I can go and what I can do. Afraid of change. Now all I want is change because the present does not work. I like who I am, but I am not sure I like all the people around me. Its time to surround myself with new people, and those who have stood by me so far. If you're reading this, you're obviously welcome to join me in this journey.|
It is time for a summer of fun.
Things on the agenda
-Getting back in track shape
-----I want to run at UMass next year because running is what keeps me at peace. It also motivates pretty much all of my entries in my livejournal since junior year or so. So that is a main goal. After putting on some weight (not just from college, I gained more of it last summer than I did at school), I still find myself running pretty well. The endurance just needs to come back.
-----I want to play as much as possible, with whomever wishes to. In a perfect world, there would be a summer frisbee league. You know how there are summer basketball leagues, or Legion Baseball? That could be the frisbee league. Bunch of different towns participate and compete - I like it.
-----The hookup thing happens. If it does, it does. I don't see myself exactly resisting it, but the ultimate goal here is a relationship. Something a little more concrete. All the girls I find myself falling for are for whatever reason "unattainable". Not a low self-esteem issue, but they are all either taken, bitches, or asexual. Maybe all of the above. Maybe I send out a signal, that is subconcious? Like, a subliminal message saying "Stay away". Who knows, haha. But like I said, I just want to meet a girl who is fun to spend time with. I'm sick of being tossed around like yesterdays garbage by the girls I like. Even if I tell them how I feel, I don't get a straight answer. I mean WTF! haha
-Hanging out with my close friends
-----I complain in my LJ, its never a positive thing. But I do have some great friends. I mentioned them an entry or two ago. Those are the people I want to spend my time with and wreak havoc. And besides them, I want to make new friends. Possibly through something like the aforementioned Frisbee. Also, meeting new friends could lead to meeting new female friends, which could lead to a female companion. We shall see.
-Trip to Florida
-----If you know me, you know I love me some Florida. August!
-Trip to New York
-----Prolly going to visit a friend or two from school in Mid-July with Matty El.
-Trip to Idaho (??)
-----Way too expensive to visit Idaho, but I'd like to see if it is possible to win on the blue.
To everyone: I'm home. Cell's usually on. give me a buzz and we'll do something. I'll bring the frisbee. And then? Introduce me to your friends, haha.
That is all.